If you know me at all, you know I am obsessed with reading various blogs. Most authors of the blogs I read, I have never met and probably never will. One of my favorites is Ragamuffin Soul.

On today's post, Los, the author, posted a video from his time in Uganda will Compassion International. It shows Shannon, an American woman, meeting her sponsored child, Nukonga (I think). Shannon meets her child and throws her arms around him. It is beautiful. I cried.

Liz asked what I was watching and after I told her she said , "You should do that." (I sponsor a child in Tanzania. He just turned five and his name is Minifu. He is gorgeous. Maybe I could post a pic of him soon!)

My first reaction- "I can't. It would break my heart to love them and have to leave them there."

How embarrassing and terrible that this is my first reaction. I am more concerned with how it would make ME feel. When I get honest, in that moment, I would rather keep Minifu at a safe distance, as a picture on a postcard and an occassional letter than a real child.

But this is a real child.